You and I have some parallel experiences. But then, don’t we all? Which is part of your point. We may never know in this life why we chose this learning experience in this life on this planet, but we can make the most of our enrollment. Opening up to our fear and resistance and embracing them allow for the flow, the high, and the peace that passes all understanding which we all long for. I’ve learned that our brains will take charge if we let them, and it takes calm vigilance to bring ourselves back to soul over and over.