Wow. I felt so many emotions reading this. I’m so sad your father treated you that way. My own training in martial arts was different in some ways, and similar in others. I was fortunate that Aikido is not as directly injurious as boxing, most of the time. Also, my training partners were careful when I was pregnant. However, my wise, female doctor ordered me to stop when she found out I kept training until four months pregnant at 40. Bless her. I waited until my son was six to go back, and take him with me. Thank you for this visceral, enlightening story.