This statement is the essence of your story. While I certainly realize the slavery to standards of beauty our culture has inflicted on us, I use makeup in a different way. My face and body are my canvas. I use style and makeup to enhance or draw attention to the features I love. If that enhancement also attracts male attention, that works for me. Primarily though, I like to play and experiment with what I present to the world, and to myself, much as an artist does with their creations.