Thank you for writing an insightful article about suicidal motivation and ideation from the inside. Some of my clients who have attempted say they had thoughts like yours. Others say they weren’t thinking of loved ones at all, only of the emotional pain and how to end it. That is even more inherently “selfish.” And, like you, they realize it now. Fortunately they and you have that opportunity to see past the attempt. Thank you for telling people to reach out. And May I add, when people reach out to you, take them seriously. Even though we can’t stop those who are truly determined, we can have an influence on others.